My dread for going to this class is only rivaled by my want for not having more than one absence at this time of the year…
Was that a sentence? I’m no longer sure.
I hate hate HATE when I realize the mistakes I made when I was shooting as I’m editing my photos.
Melissa’s Inner Conversation: You idiot! Why the fuck did you have your aperture so damn open? Because now things that are supposed to be in focused are blurry as shit. Way to fucking go.
I’ve been going since 7:00 AM. Now currently 12:17 AM. I had like, maybe an hour and a half of “break-time” today to get coffee, eat lunch and dinner. And I’m still not completely done with what I need to finish today. Fuck.
Omg I just remembered I don’t have to be perfect. :)
Get studying! :)
Feeling guilty about not being able to animate and help out of the goodness of my heart because I’m SICK is really just the best feeling ever. No, really. It’s awesome. Thanks to the people who are actually on the animation and layout team for not showing up and making your leads angry and ready to hate all the juniors. Well done.
Honestly, I really shouldn’t feel guilty. I was sick and it’s not even my sub-team. And yet…
the bottom line here is that i love learning but i hate school because school drains everything good from you and replaces it with anxiety and depression and feelings of inadequacy in people that are incredible and talented and skilled
That sounds a lot like life. There’s all this other shit that’s going on (paying bills, having a boss, doing laundry, going to the grocery store, dressing yourself) that can cause anxiety and depression (which happens to me) that you just have to get through and do what you love. THAT is what school prepares you for. You can’t let school get to you. Let them educate you, but don’t let them indoctrinate you. Learning to learn (and kick ass) through all the bullshit.
(I’m going to have to come back and read this after every bad day I have. Thanks, Past Melissa! You ain’t too bad, even if you are a little lazy.)